LIFE – Page 4

Familiar, anyone?

I have this thought every. single. new. year. Grand plans in my head of what I want to do better, what I want to fix, what I want to accomplish. Seriously, I have bought and started a new journal every January for the last 4 years. I have felt a fire in my gut for something new with each passing new years’ day since I can remember. My goal for 2018, my 30th year on this earth? Run a half marathon. I even signed up and paid the entry fee (when I absolutely did not have the money to spare) thinking that would be enough motivation to actually train and make it happen. I had four full months to properly train. I bought new shoes and had custom inserts fit to my feet. I utilized the free gym at my office complex. … Did I run that half marathon? What do you think? (That answer is a big, fat NOPE, in case you were still unsure.)

That’s me! Hello! *waves frantically*

I am 100% freaking out. Have I wanted to start a blog for years? Yes. Have I let every insecurity and bad habit get in the way of doing it? Fo sho. Difference between then and now? Absolutely nothing, other than I am facing my fear, telling myself “screw everyone who has a negative opinion about it”, and just going for it. Being completely honest here, I’ve had my blog space and domain for over a year now. ONE YEAR! I let life and my fear get in the way of making this enough of a priority. But you know what? It’s a new year. I’m doing everything I can to grow and better myself, and that includes getting over my sh*t. Nothing may come of this blog. I may get ZERO readership, but that’s okay. This is for me. This is the creative outlet I’ve been yearning after for years now, and if that means it remains a place that is essentially a journal of my life, I’m okay with that.

So, here we go. You can read a little about me under ‘Who’s This Chick?’, so I’ll leave that for you. For my very first ever in life blogpost, I’m just going to say hey and let you know what to expect. I’m going to write about the things I know: working full-time while also being a Mom, raising a little boy (even though I’m learning as I go there), books, being a wife, my personal growth, and whatever else comes up as I go.

Welcome to the journey.

New Year, New Me?

Scaredy Cat